xoxo from kundasang...

25th january 2008. kk to kundasang. zen garden resort. pine 6.
gegerl, azrul, azeem, udin, mat, z, kuya and wan.
kegilaan. kegembiraan. kebodohan. ketidak-aturan. kebingungan.

from left ; azrul. mat. azeem. z. gegerl. kuya. wan. and udin.

i missed those dumb-dumb.

azeem ; ya lah. sudah la aku hitam, tiada girlfriend.

z ; lembuuu...

udin ; yuuhuuu.. saya mau bayar.. saya mau bayar nieh. yuhuu..

mat ; tukang potong cerita and buat semua lawak bodoh yang bikin semua org sakit perut.

kuya ; proott..

wan ; sama la dia dengan si kuya. suka kentut.

azrul ; haih.. makan makan.. kuat makan.

gegerl ; tukang gambar and paling bising tidak pandai diam.

azeem sakit gigi. terbatas kegilaan yang selama ini memang gila.

z also sakit tekak tiba-tiba.

but, its was fun! seriously fun.

p/s : kononnya satu malam, jadi dua malam. haha.

Love hurts...

But sometimes it's a good hurt

And it feels like I'm alive.

Love sings,

When it transcends the bad things.

Have a heart and try me,

'cause without love I won't survive.

incubus-love hurts

yes. its true that without love, i wont survive. without you, i wont survive..

please take me and release me from doubt.

im sorry for being a messed. yes, a messed. i might be not understand you well, yet enough. and i took the blame. my fault, my fault. i should be blame. im sorry about it.

but i just wanted you to know that, i needed u more than i need myself as who i am. i just cant step foward without your supports and love. you meant a lot to me. dont go, please dont go. stay here, always inside me, always near me, beside me. support me and guide me. love me and care for me. please baby, please. promise me..

to my beloved hubby, jangan marah-marah. you tak lawa if marah. senyum sayang, senyum..

thanks for joining me and my friends watch movie. i know you jealouse coz my name is there. JOHANNA.. ahaks..

to sarah, nadia and farah, i know you guys also jealouse my name was the one beautiful blonde and charming lady staying in the golden empty and lonely cage. haha. well, thanks for inviting me and azrul for the movie. i like the anthony singing 'my name' scene. haha. ngee.

to farah, still wondering, 'what happen?' haha. but u look gojas bebeh. i cant believe it was you at the first place. yeah, we wasnt that close but as i remembered, the last time i saw you was 1997? omigod. a decade! well, pretty you!

cintaKAYANGAN in love with putraKAYANGAN

geddit?

langit versus awan

langit biru di simbah awan gemawan memutih, memeluk kejap seiring berlaku, biar di tempuh gelora udara, takkan merubah tingginya kesetiaan, ibarat setianya cik awan dan cik langit. jikalau cik awan bersembunyi jauhkan diri, sepilah langit rindu-rinduan..

the cuci kereta and kelapa session..
his house. with si kecik, haiqal. maen baling-baling batu di laut. cicak or ikan berkaki. tangkap ayam. back to baling batu di laut. cicak or ikan berkaki. fun and full of laugh.
'nahh chicak'
'bukan. ikan tuh. tapi ada kaki'
'chicak'
'ikan bha iqal'
'nah nah.. chicak'
'ikan bha..'
kelapa mawar. yes. air kelapa mawar. azrul petik. kopek. and saya minum. isinya, share sama iqal. nyum nyum.

i miss si kecik iqal!

dearest sarahana...

to sarahana, this one for u. tidak semua love story ends with happy ending. some ends with tears. i hope you'll be okay. love hurt. thats the fact. i felt it. we felf the same. same time. ;)

namun ini adalah segala ungkapan emosi, inspirasi yg tertuang melalui keyboard. hanya ini saja yang mampu aku lakukan untuk meluahkan segala isi hati aku..

cinta bukan sekedar perkataan, bukan sekedar untaian kata tak bermakna, bukan sekadar hiasan. kenapa setiap cinta di akhiri dengan air mata? apa erti cinta sebenarnya? yang indah atau yang luka semata-mata? bukankah cinta juga satu pengorbanan?
kalau benar itu cinta yang tulus, ia ibarat kiambang berpaut. kalau kiambang dipisahkan, mereka pasti berpaut semula.

CINTAILAH seseorang itu atas dasar siapa dirinya sekarang dan bukan siapa dia sebelumnya. Malah, kisah lampau yang berlaku tidak perlu diungkit lagi sekiranya hati benar-benar menyintai dirinya. kalau miliki cinta yang terbaik, jangan sekali kali melepaskannya, nanti menyesal tak sudah.

'pabila cinta memanggilmu, ikutilah dia dengan jalan yang penuh liku'.

january seventh, two thousand eight

the birthday boy look.

(more picture to be upload)

happy birthday awangku mohd azrul.
happy birthday to you baby.
awh. 21 years old. Being an adult (KIDULT i mean).

anyway, small birthday gathering in my sayang house.
its awesome. the folks are so adorable.
you folks mean the WORLD to me.
thanks to mama, bapa, abg azman, abg azhar, kak kas and who ever i didnt mention for helping me on this suprise birthday party for him. thanks alot people.

the most moment i remembered when his father talk-talk about me.
he is so cute. yes. his father is so cute.
'alhamdulillah.. terjumpa juga pak cik sama bakal menantu pak cik ni. cantik lagi. budi bahasa sopan santun. pandai si Arul tapuk girlfriend dia. nda pun dia kasi kenal. nasib kamu datang nak. kenal-kenal juga pak cik sama kamu. kalau dari dulu datang, macam keluarga sudah kita ni. girlfriend cantik pun di tapuknya. anak apa la... ma, boleh di buat menantu ni.'
still di telinga saya setiap baris kata.
well, bapa, u dont know me.. haha..
thanks for accepting me.

we had this long bacaan doa selamat for him before blowing candle. LoOOong okay.
abg azman was like 'satu buku doa la dia baca tu'
and i found it great.
selama birthday saya, i never had this bacaan doa. haha..

haikal, si kecik yang saya suka makes the cake cutting session LONG.
cause he look so desprate to blow the candles. and he was so excited then abg azman lighten the candles again for him.
'satu tahun nda tau berapa kali birthday dia ni. semua birthday orang dia pun mau juga'
mama said. kids, are the same. but its so cool being there.

sayang, happy birthday.
i hope this birthday keeps u a thousand memories. memories u and me with your family.
i love u babe. seriously..

sepi dalam gelap...

kadang-kadang, aku bisa duduk dan fikir tentang apa erti semua kebahagian yang sudah aku kecapi. tapi sesuatu yang susah aku ungkapkan, malah aku sendiri tidak pasti dengan semua yang aku rasa. ibarat ada yang tidak terlihat, tapi datang menyelinap, ada yang tidak terungkap,tapi bahasa tidak perlukan kata. kalian mengerti kan? tapi aku bersyukur dengan setiap kebahagian dan kegembiraan yang di berikan oleh dia. kekasih aku.
'i sayangkan u babe. ibarat... erm... sebutir pasir ibarat satu cinta i.. kalau tak pun, seluas langit...'
luahan dia untuk aku. terpaksa? yes sebab aku membulinya. dan aku suka membulinya. and the best part when he tired been questions..
'babe.. you tanya la soalan-soalan okay tapi jangan tanya i sayang you ka tidak sebab jawapan dia, i sayang sangat dengan you. i mau tidur nih.. you tanya ja apa-apa. i jawap..'
he is so sweet. i cant imagine my life without his voice and sweet words that melts my heart..
the favourite phrase i missed ;
'mau kena ampas pakai yelopages? ka belalai gajah?'
the favourite things i love to say to him ;
'you sayang i ka tidak nih? sayang bilang...! i timbak u'
or
'you sayang i?'
'betul?'
'tipu....'
serious?'
'iya babe?'
and he will reply ; (dengan penuh sabar dan geram)
'i sayang u babe'
'betul'
'tidak tipu'
'serious bha'
'iya'
i know it sound boring to him but i just love the way he answer me.
and i know he like it...

and we just love us..
the thing called love is not too complicated,..

xoxo from us - kasih, kekasih..

those pictures worth thousand meanings..

and memories..

between you & me...

the day of happiness and smile... sweet and eternity...
you are the best thing i ever had..
thank God, i found u..
hey WORLD! im deeply in love with this guy,,.