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we doing just FINE and GREAT..

people, meet azREPUBLIC. my soulmate. my bestfriend. my love??

okay, today was our second time breaking fast two-gether. it was fun and good. told you, we doing just FINE and GREAT. did i mention that we had our break fast at Sate Mesra last year on the third day of Ramadhan? this year same place but its was on the fifth day. Buffet. haha. it was FUN to see he ate a lot. senang hati woo. okay and today, seventh day of fasting we had our lamb chop session. oh ya, before that we spend our stupid crazy hours jalan-jalan tengok keretas (with S means more than one). until end up at TAMPARULI. yes, tamparuli, i repeat. crazy bha. but we had fun. pictures snappings. laughing. singing. lawak ketidak-atururan. its was FUN! then, we went to one borneo for windows shopping. he's trying this cloths and that. looking this stuffs and that. trying perfums this and that. haha. so thats for today. we doin just fine.

and he sang for me...

'hey wanita,gembira dapat berjumpa,teringat kembali kali pertama kita bersua,ingat bila kita bersepatu serupa,tak lama dahulu jangan kau kata kau dah lupa.gemuk,dirimu buat ku tertarik,menghilang segala prasangka,di jiwa,ohh gemuk,sungguh aku cinta kamu'

fyi,, i miss him. haha

i miss you, and its bloody true

i need HELP and opinion people. should i keep in touch with him, ...theloveofmylife or just stay away and run hide from him?? actually, im afraid BAD things happened again. like the night i was at his house. freak me alot. i really dont want it to happen again! serious shit!! but i missed him. haha. come on people, i've been thinging, wondering, dreaming about him for the past two months. i'd cried myself to sleep. yes until now. pethatic bha kau pikir!!

so i just need your opinion about ;-

'SHOULD I KEEP IN TOUCH WITH HIM OR JUST STAY AWAY, RUN AND HIDE FROM HIM'

I think, i'm going to go BEZERK. i spent my ENTIRE NIGHT last night thinking what had happened to me and my ...theloveofmylife. seriously i keep wondering and thinking things again and again. what the fuck is happening? why this happened? stupid me. remorsed and regrets! wtf!

my ...loveofmylife was sick last night. he had this red eyes crap. and guess what? i brought him to permai policlinic. ya ya. stupid me. i missed him thats all. thats the only way i could see him. God listen to my heart. what i asked was only he dail my number so that i can listen to his voice. but God really loves us. God wont tortures people's feeling. so He met us up! haha. Thanks God for that. haha. okay, then after the clinic session, we had our lepak session at Rimba Sutera. just a glass of ice tea with lemon (isnt it ice lemon tea?). and he had talk. it was fun to see him. smiling. laughing. and he doesnt look SICK! haha. ya ya. red eyes. come on people, just tell him that i am the 'penawar'. haha. we went to mc donald drive thru and get some bites. ronda-ronda kingfisher cari abg bob's laundry and cyber cafe. urgh. but was okay la. we found plenty laundries. and zero cyber cafe. anyway its 12 fucking AM. and we went back at 1.30AM.

i missed him already. breath in breath out.

i don't realise, but i let let myself hurting me so badly inside. so badly that sometimes i just feel that you don't have the same feelings towards me anymore. and i sometimes, i feel like it's better if we dont see each other, call or smses. but i don't want to, cause that wouldn't only hurt you (maybe) but it will hurt me deeply. cause i'll be missing you so bad. i miss you voice. it will scar my heart, forever. so now, i'm bearing with it. i'm trying to learn to accept the fact that's we just the way we are. & i fallen with who you are, that line is puree. it's just bringing you trouble. well, it's my lost, i'm not going to be bugged about it, just a waste of my time. and i can't change the fact that you still 'HATES' me. I THINK MY HEART HAS STOPPED BEATING. more like "i think my heart has just started BLEEDING again". it hurts. it hurts alot.
but i guess i can't do anything about it. unless you tell me what you want in me. but maybe, i won't change. cause life worth nothing to me anymore.

I'm just sorry. for anything. i've done. i guess. and. yeah.

**sor·ry play_w adj. sor·ri·er, sor·ri·est

*1. Feeling or expressing sympathy, pity, or regret: I'm sorry I'm late.
2. Worthless or inferior; paltry: a sorry excuse.
3. Causing sorrow, grief, or misfortune; grievous: a sorry development

i'm an emotional wreck.

freak. i hate you i hate you i hate you. Can't imagine that we are over. it's over. its been two months? Fcuk you, i'm pissed and stressed out. i need a massage. message from you. argh. pethatic!!

well, overall, my life is just screwed up.yes it is. DEFINITELY. so help me. *sarcasm*sigh

private blog or just let it be public?

dear friends and readers,

i had this anonymous who actually comments my blog, recently. and i think those word a harsh!
so, tell me, should i just keep this blog public or private to people i invites and approve only.
drop your comment. its help. thanks.

to anonymous, thanks for the comment. why dont you put your name instead of anonymous?? dont you dare?? wtf!!

the 3rd day of fasting was okay lah. wasnt that bad after all. but i missed those time last year where me and him spending this fasting month together. haha. 3rd day 2007 fasting, we end up break fast at satay mesra, city mall. and i remembered, he ate A LOT!!. i still remember it. whoa.. gilak nie! but memories rawk. and pethatic!! like sara said, im not like Johanna she knew. im no more talkative. silence all the way. haha.
me and my friends *name sencored*, went to bazaar ramadhan buying food for us. and suddenly i said to my girlfriend, 'babe, ni makanan favourite awang. yong tau foo. he like to eat this.' haha. am i that pethatic? omg. pergh. i can even forget about him. help!!!

i had this conversation with a friend of mine, i spent basicly 6 hours talking about feelings and how regretful i am. im tired crying for 2 amazing pethatic months. believe it, i've been crying everyday dowh! crazy as fakk! I dont know how write more interesting posts,it just comes down to how much.how happy i am being with the one i called ...loveofmylife.

my wish, please God. makes him call me. i miss his voice.

TELL ME HOW TO GET RID OF HIM!! PLEASE!

to my no-longer-boyfriend..

to the one i used to called ...loveofmylife
u came into my life,

brings those happiness, loves and cares. the shine that brights my dark life. but my heart always questions myself. are you my distany? are you the one? are you? a million questions in mind. do i always make you happy? am i happy? yes i am happy being with you. but will the happiness last? i think it will. happy forever with you and me.

but, now you're gone. heavenly gone. just leaves me with thousands memories. sweet memories. bitter one too. thanks for those memories. ;) but i always wish for us to be us like we used to be.

now i realize, the fates that i need to face. the one i need to go through. and i know that you wasnt the one for me. wasnt the one. you belongs to that someone who much better. thousand more better than me. i could cry an hour. crying myself to sleep. remorse. regrets. but hey, shits happened.

hey, i hope you'll always be happy. with who ever the girl is. the one you loves. and care.

p/s : sorry friends. i just expressing my heart out. wahaha. luahkan sesuatu bisa melegakan kan?

xoxo,

misstaNashah

kau puisi hatiku...

DOA SEORANG KEKASIH
TUHANKU,seandainya telah kau catat dia mlikku,tercipta buatku, dekatkanlah dia padakusatu kan hatinya dengan hatiku.titipkan kemesraan antara kami agar kebahagiaan ini abadi,dan tuhanku YANG MAHA PENGASIH,seiringkanlah kami dalam melayari hidup ke tepian yang sejahtera.. tetapi tuhanku,seandainya telah engkau takdirkan dia bukan milikku,bawalah dia jauh dari pandanganku.luput dari ingatanku dan peliharakanlah diriku dari kecewanya.tuhanku YANG MAHA MENGERTI,berilah diriku kekuatan melontar bayangannya ke dada langit,hilang bersama senja merah dan gelap pekat malam agar aku rasa bahagia walalupun tanpa dirinya dan tuhanku YANG TERCINTA,gantikanlah yang telah hilang tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah meskipun tiada sama dengan dirinya seandainya dia datang menemuiku dan cinta itu adalah cinta yang sejati dan suci seandainya dia pergi dan tiada menemuiku dan anggaplah cinta itu tidak wujud dari awal..

those wedding i went was tiring...

i went to alot of people's wedding in this week. like alot!

and i did went to my exbf wedding as well. haha. sound weird but its true. helping his family preparation and stuff. omg. he's cute. still. haha. but they look soooo adorable. and nice. plus cute. and beautiful. haha. will upload some of OUR pic soon.

here some of those photos taken from the wedding i took.

this is me and my junior back in high school. kie. kak lyn my senior in high school.

and the pengantin! abg roy and nurain.

pretty isnt it? anyway, life sucks. haha. meeting people oso plain bored. but fun la. those chicks was crazy! updates later. xoxo

i miss my BFFL<333

nombre 1 ; i missed azrul.

nombre 2 ; i missed sara.

nombre 3 ; i missed ziela.

nombre 4 & 5 ; i missed nadia & intan.

i missed my BFFL.best friendsforeverlove. *cough* especially nombre 2,3,4 & 5. the nombre 1, i seen him almost everyday. so not much miss-miss one la. and si PUTRI. putri bha kan sara? haha.

hope to see you all soon.

xoxo, cikKAYANGAN

prettymutherfuckinsweet...?

So at the moment, life has been prettymutherfuckinsweet. I cant explain it, theres just too much going on to sum it all up.Its just simple and great just the way i like it, with the exception of some missing people.Missing the ...loveofmylife (mr az) & my jiwa&&raga (nadia&&intan). and maybe the zen garden's people. maybe. ;)

It hurts how much I have lost myself. will get him back, i hope.So, its complicated.We have our own issues.
Its a truthful world.He makes my heart beat so fast its not funny anymore<3
Memories, blame, hurt.

Everytime I think about you, I just think about how much we had hurts.Im getting my life back on track, and sometimes when that happens, you have to leave everything behind.everything.
Things have been hard.
Things have been driving me crazy.
Things have been changing me.
Its hard to explain the relationships me have with people.To define them.When they're not around,or when they're too close.
You learn different sides. Like when you get really close to someone, u see their soft side-their untouched side, the side that will open up yourself towards them.The side that gets you thinking oh wow.The side that makes u feel the happiness of getting to be their friend.
And the side that breaks you down.The one where you get too close, and you learn their bad habits.Which annoy you. Frustrate you. Kill you.Ruin you. Ruin the friendship.
*sigh*
i wish there was something;
i could do to be able to make me feel useful.
im sorry,
that i cant do anything more.
i feel bad,
that i can do anything about it.

im in a deep mess, a hole, a big damn problem.and i cant get out.choose your friends; eliminate ur enemies.help out others; get ur heart broken.

now you can tell betweenthe traitors and the fakers

lovely day..lovely day..

today, me and my beloved ex-boyfriend ( dont laugh ) we went out. yes. after a month we havent meet or call. we met up. it's kinda funny but we still the 'great, great, great good friend'. well, i never thought that that im this strong to see him. BUT I DID! im stronger than yesterday. yeay! haha. im happy. im greatful. and im full of happiness. haha. we spent 6 hours together. haha. i cant stop laughing. and i miss him already. waaahhh!

we go papar, which is FAR from kk. doing stuff some works there at papar. and had our lunch together. wee.. haha. coffee friends, the lunch spot. we talked alot. we laugh alot. we talked and laugh alot. it was fun weh! haha.

kita ging bha kan ging??

xoxo,
cikKAYANGAN

im hurt..

darkness cannot drive out darkness. only light can do that.

hate cannot drive hate, only love can do that.

when u love someone, and you have to let him go, its hurt.
especially the one who give you too much hope and love, cares and faiths.

kepada awangku mohd azrul,
biarpun apa pun yang terjadi, saya tetap sayang and terus sayang kamu. you know that.
jangan berasa sunyi, kerna hati saya juga begitu. sedih, sendiri dan sunyi. mana mungkin bisa hati ini tenang tanpa kamu. just wanna let you know, i love you to death. ;)

jaga diri kamu, andai tiada khabar dari saya.

here i come again...

i was so fcuking busy with works and stuff lately. plus my streamyx line is now suspended. congrates.

i met someone new. a girl. nice and pleasent attitude. good. and adorable. she loves pink. name? secret. haha. well, i just spent few minutes reading her blog. topic. 'bercinta?' haha. its sounds like she's telling people who were non-single stop pretending that u are single. haha. i love this babe. i love her. well, it is true, if u owned someone, tell. dont just keep it behind. kononnya mau cari pacaran lain. gitu? haha. actually i met this adorable babe from a crisis between my hubbie and me last month. but things goes smooths now. alhamdulillah... I think Im just too weak hearted, and think mostly its coz my heart cant take the break. phew..
kepada kalian semua, bilangin donk kalau udah punya cowok atau cewek. kok diam!

Just because im so effin sick today that its not funny,that i will do this. Which i usually dont. having PMwith extra SSS is sucks!

i missed my hubbie. biarpun dinner sama-sama, but i missed him already. ;(
It makes me happy that my shuffling makes others happy as well. its hard to explain. being with him was awesome. and im happy. he's like hot chocolate in the morning, and milk at late night. he's too cute for words, Too gorgeous for pictures, and the best love i could ever have. i sayang u gundut!! And my secret love's no secret anymore.

okay, something about FRIENDSHIP here. where are the person u called friends? kadang-kadang ada. kadang-kadang tiada. hilang? ya, ada yang sibuk bercinta. sampai no more hang out like we always had. sms? no reply, he said. call? no answer he said. gone. orang ada girlfriend. biasa la. haha. well, happy for you. smoga kekal. amin.

xoxo, gerl

shut up, get LOST and go to HELL!

Im not fighting back anymore. Im not fighting for faith. The faith i always believed in someone has GONE.
So Im not asking for another chance. And Im not asking for a movie moment.I just want you to know that what you're doing really makes me goes crazy.
So in 1, 2, 3 days from now you can look back at this smiling,
not ever ever EVER regretting or thinking what if.
and i hope u wont regret anything.

YOU SCREWED ME OVER, MOFO!!
im still pissed off at you.im still ready to cut you into pieces.i must say though,you did have me at hello.

now, today, my life has changed. my heart has broken into pieces. and thanks to you!
ya ya, sebab kau memang tak pernah mengerti! go to HELL!

im sooooo sick of being hurt.

terindah di indah permai....

Aku yang pernah engkau kuatkan
Aku yang pernah kau bangkitkan
Aku yang pernah kau beri rasa
Saat ku terjaga
Hingga ku terlelap nanti
Selama itu aku akan selalu mengingatmu
Kapan lagi kutulis untukmu
Tulisan-tulisan indahku yang dulu
Pernah warnai dunia
Puisi terindah ku hanya untukmu
Mungkinkah kau kan kembali lagi
Menemaniku menulis lagi
Kita arungi bersama
Puisi terindahku hanya untukmu

song dedicated to azeeeeem and riney. the love.

riney merajuk!!!
azeem pujuk!!
aku merajuk!!
sepa pujuk??

huh.
dunia, dunia.
andai bisa bicara, ingin aku khabarkan cerita terindah malam ini.
biar semua tertawa riang, bagai bulan terang, bintang menyinar..
aku pati bulan dan bintang juga akan tertawa melihat mereka.
azeem & riney.

riney : open the gate
azeem : *diam*
riney : i said, buka the pagar. i mau balik.
gerl : im going with u kay?
riney : nda la. u suruh si azeem hantar la. buka la pagar.
azeem : riney, pls...
riney : buka pagar!
azeem : *buka pagar* (bodoh kan?)
riney jalan dalam hujan. masuk kereta.
bulan dan bintang, bisa kalian lihat?? inilah kenangan indah malam ini...
gerl : zeem, p la ko pujuk. dia belum start keta lg tu. dia minta pujuk tu!
azeem : *jalan kuar pagar, p keta riney, si cinta hati*

one hour later,,
pap!! (bunyi keta punya pintu) 2 kali!

wat we saw is riney and azeem going back to the house...
the LOVE is back!!!

kalau bisa bulan dan bintang bicara, pasti dia berkata, inilah ciptaan Tuhan. indahnya cinta mereka.. dan bulan dan bitang turut ketawa seperti aku, mat dan awang tertawa.

riney merajuk,
azeem pujuk.
aku merajuk,
siapa pujuk???

xoxo,
cintaKAYANGAN

angin,sampaikan salam cinta saya pada dia ya?

Ada yang membuat hari aku tersenyum indah sehingga taman berbisik - bisik

itu cinta

Ada yang buat aku rasai langit itu indah sehingga laut menjadi kalbu

itu rindu

Ada yang mentetas semula kesuraman aku sehingga aku tidur tersenyum

itu harapan

Ada yang telah dan pun sudah membelai jiwa aku sehingga menidurkannya

itu kamu, angin..

dunia semakin cerah. bulan semakin dekat. laut semakin cetek. manusia semakin banyak. binatang habis dimakan. batu hanya di bakar. air penghilang dahaga. tumbuhan dijadikan ilham. gelap menjadi siang. cinta semakin datang.

angin, sampaikan salam cinta saya pada dia ya? katakan padanya,

"cinta ku untuknya telah aku berikan, rasa yang ada di hatiku telah aku tuangkan, semua yang ada akan ku persembahkan karena cinta untuk mu telah aku ciptakan , semua hanya untuk mu seorang."

hari ini, tika ini, aku mula menulis. menghabiskan cerita yang sudah hampir aku pinggirkan.

'maafkan aku mencintaimu'

you know you love me,

xoxo

365 amazing days we gone through...

awangku mohd azrul & johanna natashah

happy anniversary my dear.

no word can explain how my heart is. i felt very happy. thanks sayang sebab ada dengan i selama ni biar susah and senang. thanks sangat-sangat.

thanks for giving me loads of joys and happiness. u completed me.

happy anniversary sayang. i will always love you.

xoxo

cintaKAYANGAN

mat mitul kapinul 'metal iron kiss' rose kajempa...

"saya bersumpah dengan nama Allah, saya tak kenal langsung Tasha dan tak pernah jumpa dia. cuma kawan saja niat saya"

by mat mitul kapinul

the stories goes... 18th march, sore yang udah mau masuk waktu maghrib, me and my hubby, azrul went to louise bridal to give back flower girls punya gowns. and then, i wanted to call azeem (we about to go tawau and he said he might be lepaking for awhile at the terminal bus, so kira wanna lepak with them la). since i change my phone number, azeem's number wasnt in my new number. but mat punya ada. jadi i called mat. si mat answered the phone with such a romantic soft spoken and boleh kira macho peringkat kampung la. and i dont know kenapa datang kebodohan yang nyata saya, saya pun layan la juga si mat. kononnya mau berkenalan.

me:hello...

mat:ya hello. siapa ni?

me:ini sri nor ke?

mat:ya. aik. macam mana kamu tahu nama saya?

me:saya dapat dari somewhere la. kamu di mana? boleh berkenalan?

mat:dari mana ah kamu dapat? saya d terminal bas mau pergi tawau.

me:awh.. kampung kamu ka tawau?

mat:ya kampung saya di tawau. nama kamu siapa?

me:ahh saya Tasha.

mat:hai Tasha. kamu panggil ja saya mat(slow voice).. eh RONNIE.

there is where start kisah si TASHA and RONNIE..

Tasha and Ronnie smses, called, smsed, and called. mangsa ketawa muka merah, azeem. whenever Tasha on the phone with Ronnie, azeem automaticly had headache. haha. (padahal tahan ketawa). azeem tukang update perkembangan si ronnie. he's kinda angau and gila bayang about not-exist tasha. haha. good job azeem!

Tasha kononnya study in Cosmo. Stay at Api-api block E while Ronnie stayed at Api-api block A. hujung dengan hujung. tapi bisa jumpa di tengah-tengah. they plan a date to met up during breakfast before class at 8 (kononnya class ada jam 8). Ronnie is a person yang very hard to bangun dari tidur. but since he wanna go for FIRST BREAKFAST DATE with Tasha, he didnt sleep. 6am sudah Ronnie turun KK to meet Tasha. but di mana si Tasha? tidur d rumah! bukan di api-api, but putatan. haha. keras si ronnie tunggu si tasha. malang sungguh nasib mu ronnie. haha. so they didnt meet up at last. kecewa si ronnie. BUT, dia trip bagi tau azeem and udin that he met up with TASHA! haha. gitu la bha ko mat! wap sama ging! contunued, tasha keepin touch sama ronnie. smses and calls. until we went to bowlrama. i was smsing with ronnie, i mean tasha was smsing with ronnie. tasha and ronnie berdepan but ronnie tidak dapat SCAN yang dia sms dengan orang depan dia! haha . like always, azeem and udin tahan ketawa. just imagine, when we go for lepaking session(me, hubby,azeem and udin), si ronnie call, we loudspeaker and laugh out loud!

endingnya, ngam-ngam azeem remembered ronnie's birthday was 27march. we held on suprised birthday party yang menang surpised gila. the plan goes like this..

27thmarch - malam. rumah azeem. cake tempat udin. makanan di dhazli. tasha plan to met up ronnie that night, di rumah azeem. ronnie never dressed up that smart but that night he dressed up nice. oh ya, tasha told ronnie her birthday was also 27th march. its like they celebrating same date. haha. okay, azeem and ronnie di rumah and udin tunggu signal. me, azrul, ziela, and zed parked depan rumah si udin.

azrul called ronnie and marah-marah sebab kacau girlfriend dia. and ronnie was suprise plus terkejut. terduduk, terdiam, terpaku, terkesima, ter segala ter. they had fight on the phone la. azeem and udin membatu api di belakang si ronnie. tapi din, kau dengar dorang gaduh dari mana? sora dari depan rumah ko ka, dari hp si ronnie? haha. oaky, they fight la konon mau jumpa. si ronnie lari pergi padang. mau sattle sama the boyfriend la kononnya. sekali semua panik sebab si ronnie bertindak luar jangkaan kami. azeem and udin pergi kejar si ronnie. si azrul bawa keta pi kejar and then si ronnie pulang. still marah and panas. and tidak puas hati.

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy burthday to mat mitul, happy birthday to you.. - cake by zed.

ronnie's face was panik, terkejut, lega, and susah la mau explain muka dia tu. haha. and he blew the candle. haha.

p/s ; mat, sampai mati ko ingat ni mat! one week punya cerita ending suprise birthday party ko. tapi ko banyak wap sama kami aaah mat. nama ronnie konon. tiada gf konon. bukit setia konon. jumpa tasha breakfast sama-sama konon. apa lagi ah? jera kau mat? haha.

i knpw the program 99% ja success tp its fun. biar pun aku terberak!! sial!

pelarian rindu, itu aku..

selepas aku mengenali azrul, aku kenal erti bahagia. kenal erti sayang dan cinta. dia mengajar aku erti kehidupan. dia membentuk aku, mengubah aku. dia mendorong aku, membimbing aku. hidup aku cukup sempurna dengan dia. dia membahagiakan aku.

dulu, aku seorang yang sendiri, penuh getir and sinis. wild-party-girl. nightlife adalah hidup aku. piercing tattoos adalah sahabat aku. kenapa Tuhan menemukan aku dengan azrul andai Dia merancangkan aku dengan dia berpisah akhirnya? kenapa? kenapa menemukan kami dan memisahkan kami? dugaan demi dugaan, ujian demi ujian Kau turunkan. kenapa saat ini semua ini terjadi? kenapa saat aku bahagia, Kau rampas semuanya? hentikanlah semua ujian Mu. sungguh aku tidak berkudrat untuk menuruskannya.

aku binggung. aku runsing. aku hilang tanpa dia yang selama ini menemani aku. dia pergi, pergi membawa diri. siapa yang simpati? siapa yang mengetahui isi hati ini? aku bagai hilang arah dan bagai tak punya apa lagi. semua hilang. mungkin aku harus kembali ke hidup aku yang penuh getir dan sinis, sendiri. agar aku bisa melupakan semua kisah tentang kami.

shake it baby...

kakak and adek

happy nine-th birthday

which one is kakak, and adek? i cant even know them. haha. pretty isnt it?

its the twin 9th birthday.. simple but NICE gathering party there. suprise party actually. they had been confused by the parents and family about when the exectly date. haha. funny but adorable when they been called to go out (they are inside the room), with they blurry face but HAPPY and shy-shy some more cause maybe i was there. bha. im new to the family so shy-shy cat la bha. CAKE! CANDLE! there are 18 candles on the cake (9 plus 9 equals to 18).

whats so kesian is my baby ikal is SICK. i repeat, my baby ikal. haha. he's sick for almost a week i guess. high the very high fever. so he is sleeping. and lucky to kakak and adek, the 18 candles are all your to be blow up. haha. no mr. ikal to tiup your candles. well ikal, you missed the candles session this year for kakak and adek's bithday. haha. tu la siapa suruh sakit!

wedding preparation - last minutes preparation is SUCKS. itu lagi. ini lagi. itu pulak. ini pulak. ape kes? but things goes smooths. and its fun to see load of family member came by to help. meriah rumah with those noisy-noisy. and for sure, akan ada sidang buka kitab like always. haha.

stop till here. need to get enuf rest for tomorrow.

poor you female pig...

dedicated to *insert psycho's name* who is indeed rude and such a cheap street girl who sucking people's spit on the roadside.

you *insert psycho's name* getting all psycho for NOTHING! gawd. are you psychologically tidak stable or just plain bored? lets have this 'lepas geram' session. i havent said a word about you bitch, bithching about me so hah ambik kau!

you *insert psycho's name* for fucksakes, i dont go around ordering guys what to do.

i know im a nice person, and i dont talk harsh to people. but today, now, there's something you gotta hear. im freaking sick of all this assumptions. i might be crazy but im not as crazy as you, big stupid crazy clown in the ass. serious, i meant it. stop with the stupid insane rumors between me and azrul. does it give you a million dollar in hand to talk bad about my relationship? do you think i will allow you to do that? i swear to god if i hear you getting psycho for nothing again, i will track you down and give you a widgie, bitch. i hope you cleared!

thanks to zahir, azeem, zed, mat and azrul for be with me.
and sarah, you rawk!!

wish you all the best...

ketika aku meneliti setiap tingkah laku kamu, aku pasrah.
mungkin ini kali, hari penghabisan kita bersua.
ya. ini hari nya.

bukan perhatian aku pinta. cuma secebis kasih.
bukan diam seribu bahasa aku inginkan. cuma sepatah ayat yang bisa buat aku tenang.

kamu diam. kamu membisu.
itu kah tanda setiap yang bermula, akan berakhir?

aku mohon kemaafan pada kamu atas setiap kata yang pernah aku ungkapkan yang bisa merobek hati kamu. aku mohon maaf juga di atas kesilapan lalu aku terhadap kamu.
terima kasih di atas layanan baik kamu terhadap aku selama ini. tanpa kamu, aku tidak akan bisa berubah seperti ini. tapi jangan pernah sekalipun salahkan diri kamu andai aku berubah menjadi seorang yang kamu tidak pernah inginkan. aku doakan kamu gembira dan bahagia selepas ini. mungkin aku bukan untukmu.

kepada sesiapa yang menjadi membaca setia blog aku, thanks. aku tidak punyai sesiapa kini untuk curahkan isi hati aku. hanya kamu semua.
and kepada semua yang mempunyai kekasih, jagalah dia sebaiknya. jangan biarkan dia merasa seperti angin di terik siang. jangan pernah biarkan dia pergi menahan sakit dan derita sendiri. di mana 'susah senang bersama?'. jangan kerana sikap kamu, dia merana. itu pesan saya. selagi berpeluang untuk perbetulkan semua, perbetulkan lah. kerna, jika tidak, dia akan pergi, dan kamu akan kembali menyendiri.

to sarahana, thanks. i appreciate all of it. u helped me out babe. thanks