he's in Heaven...

Living his new life behind the heaven's gate ... That’s how I want to think of him. I love him too much that I hate to admit he's no longer mine...I refused to think that I’ve set a full-stop in this relationship but instead I think of him as a memory that will forever send happy tears in my book of life... When I missed him and how badly I wanted to tell him, I wrote on a paper and burnt it with a wish that he will read it. Pathetic isn't? That is the power of love that I never thought I’d knew. My hope ends there. He'll never come back and I don't have to wait with guiltiness. It's easier that way, to have a strong reason why shouldn't you wait for him to come back. Because he won’t come back, he will never come back. Yes, I will loose someone with the number that I used to dial up in the middle of the night just to kiss him good night and tells him how in the world he meant to my life. But that’s the risk I should think before I ever want to be in love. People come and go. That’s life. But I won't loose the sparks of my life that shines other's life everyday without a day missing. I won't loose my smile that hides all the pain beneath me. I won't loose the laughter with joy that never failed to lie to my heart that everything is going to be okay. I won't jump from the moving train, I won't stay forever in the train. But for now, let the train runs my way, let the train goes wherever it want to go. I'll find a right destination one day, and that one destination is the place where I will decide to come down from hahahthe train for my beginning of life... Good-bye isn't the end of my life, it is the beginning for something that I will discover someday in my precious life. Love that comes and goes isn't a true love, but a love that needs a shelter when it is lonely. Though my love means nothing to others, to me...it means everything... The love for my life will helps me to stand on my own without men to help. I will get over you someday. And that someday will be the someday you will regret... i miss you. u take care. i hope u'll get someone better than me...